Fairy God Mother

Within the depths of despair there is always a silver lining, one often over looked if we are not careful. After receiving the note from Gina on the birth of her son, I had decided to visit, unannounced, carting a wagon through the streets that held the gift I had wanted to give her. I had yet to thank her for the things that she had sent Mia.


She seemed genuinely concerned for my well being, even offering me a shoulder to should I need to talk. I’m not ready yet, to divulge the full extent of my feelings to anyone, and though I declined, I know that if I need it, the offer still stands.


I had bought her a bassinette so that she would not have to tote basket, or crib around. I had found that with Charm, it was nice to have one in another room for convenience’s sake, and though my coin is dwindling, with the gift also sent to Rami and Nash for their companionship, I knew I needed to practical. The present was not elaborate, nor were the diapers, only the silver rattle in the shape of a crescent moon which I had bought for Mia sometime back, one that I would no longer need.


I don’t completely understand it, we having not spent that much time together, which is why I probably looked the gaping fool at her question. She asked me to be her child’s.. to be Cayden’s god mother.


I accepted, eventually, when I could find the words to do so.


I’m not sure if my returning to AR was a good idea or not yet. I still have my reservations. I’ve lost so much here, but I cannot seem to pull myself away. It’s always been home, despite the pain it has given me and I always find myself coming back, even though I know little awaits me here.


I didn’t talk for hands after returning to Caithris, most of my time spent in the company of Charm, who I now feel the fierce need to protect from the world around her. Despite what some might think, she is still a child and very vulnerable. Maay has promised that she will help me, help her to understand.


And me? I have promised to learn to cook something besides stew. I’ve also promised to help Charming study her ongoing fascination with plants. Maayan has a leech plant named Lavideous and now my daughter thinks she needs one as well. My sister assures me that if kept down to a single stalk and not allowed to multiply, it can actually come in quite handy. I still said no, perhaps the first time I have ever denied my daughter anything.